Okay watch out for my move to Blogger cuz

1. Onsugar always leads me to Tracker page whenever I just want to view my blog then I have to click again ._.
2. I have to type in HTML on Itouch which is killing me when I need to do breaks in my post
3. Me hab spanking new link (:

Check here still until me gib new URL :D

http://harlequinedzinc.blogspot.com/

I've so many things I want to say, some even more cheesy than you can ever imagine might come out of my mouth. Plz just scroll down if you cant stand it.

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The first time I heard that I was going to 3/10 I was going oh shit confirm got fights like free. I came into this class with my own expectations and mindset about everyone and I am sure that was the same thing in many minds. Then, I realised that I was being too judgemental and warmed up quickly to the quirky nature of this class. I've been both front and back of the level, and the difference is so great that I wished that I was in this class since I knew my ABCs.

I would miss everything that I wake up for during these two years. Waking up in thinking hey there is school today would brighten my outlook so much I would literally jump out of bed to make my way to class. How I would see the same awesome people day after day at the assembly area and they would be eating talking making a fool. How we would fool around and our Aprils Fool prank backfired upon us. How we rallied together and got rid of Fam and went on being crabs. How we had PE and everyone would have such a blast. How we laughed at teachers with forests under their arms and strange voices. How the retarded things some of you do send us into uncontrollable fits. How we ended up being late and got locked up and now my pen is stuck at the back of the lockers forever. How we buy biscuits up and munch hoping teachers would not notice. How we passed notes around in funny shapes sizes colors. How sometimes misunderstandings occur and we would put them behind us. How we told stories under sleeping bags during camp and woke up for 3am snack in the kitchen.

Sorry for all the things I've done and more for what I've failed to do. For being annoying persistent when collecting class fund and pissing you all off early in the morning. For being so loud until I think you want to shove a coconut into my mouth and bitch slap me to shut me up. Urgh

I would just like to say thank you. Thank you 4/10, for just being yourselves. For being retarded and crazy and wacky and funny and silly and headstrong and witty and everything that others arent. For allowing me to truly experience a spectrum of life that I would never see if I didnt come to this class. I love everyone of you so much. I shudder to think how I would never have the chance to see all your faces in the morning when we've all moved to higher institutions. I LOVE YOU.

I'm so sorry about my shitass promise ): I've been busy like a bee nowadays so I dont want to do a half-ass account.

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I'd rather wait till something interesting happens instead of boring you all with my daily lyfe which I am sure no one wants to read ):

I am in one of my moods now cuz I just typed one whole post for you all to read and I swear it was good then I went to click on a link from someone's blog and BAM IT WAS GONE :@ so now I dont have to right feeeeeel to type out another post so be patient okay !

You know when you want to paint, then you realised that you applied the wrong color and you try to wipe it off? Then you grab a cloth and wipe BUT it just makes a bigger mess instead ? Then you try to fix it and it is worse than ever ! I swear, my life is so bad that I could be top scorer in Fmylife.com . And I totally deserve it man. Urgh Urgh Urgh . I should have learnt from past mistakes two years back and just shut the fuck up and get on with lyfe instead.

K just texted me saying I need to go and do my mock exam. Yeah right.

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This is really fucking me up

Okay am in a rush so pardon my english

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To A ,M did say that she thought Z didnt like her. I've heard it with my own ears. Apparently , M was cleaning the board and Z made a comment saying " Some people clean the board so slow". I think (am not certain) it was a joke, but M turned back and said " I think Z doesnt like me" , which meant she took the comment by Z seriously (at that time).

Another thing, in case you didnt read my last post, Telling Z the lesbian thing was a joke DOES NOT EQUAL TO me saying that Z couldnt say it out. Do you get the difference ? And I did not drag G in for any reason. I am giving an example. I understand why you are angry with me lying, you are totally justified in doing so.  I was not pissed with Z, why would I be ? I just told her it was a joke thats all !

To Z , I am directly quoting from the person who told me that you told everyone. I did not make this up on my own. I dont wish to leave with one friend less, you are right, which is why I am trying to clarify myself. I reflected alot for the past few days, about all the things that I did in the past. So many things I've done wrong in the past which I wish I could reverse but I cant. I want to clear this whole matter instead of just leaving the mess, you understand what I'm trying to do here? I dont want to come to school for many reasons , would you all listen if I tried to explain ? I know I wouldnt be able to explain when everyone is set in their own mindset. Would you all give me a chance to explain ? Really ? I do miss the state our class was in before this mess, I do. But nothing I can do now will reverse it right ?

To M, maybe it was a casual remark when you said Z doesnt like you, I wouldnt know. But I do remember very clearly about everything you said that day.

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Accounts is wanting my life so badly

Some people make their own assumptions. This world is all about faking, all about the lies. Get the meaning of the word "IF". There aren't words to express this until I get a better grasp of English.

What happened that day was some sort of misunderstanding. If time was on our side this might not have happened. Yes, I did mention to her about what you said. But was that the actual problem ? She already knew about it even before I told her. So we were just discussing about it thats all. I quote you : "the big issue is becos you cant fucking keep a bloody small secret" How are you so confident that she "dunno" ?

The another matter , I told Z that what I said in the past was a joke. I said " I dont know if its true, but its a joke okay? And i am also not in love with A like you thought I was . Yeah . Just thought that I would clear it up , in case any misunderstanding next time ". I never blamed anyone for that issue, just clarifying with her that what I said was a joke. This does not equal to me telling her that she should not have told everyone.

All in all, the only part of this drama  that I was sorry about was the denial. I should have told you the truth probably, then maybe it would have been behind everyone.
I'm sorry though.
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Tuition was great. Only Joseph and Ivan was there and we had lots of fun:>
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Off for serious mug session cuz am feeling great now :D

Nothing is, currently, more important than Olevels. Plagiarizer alert though. Never were you the brightest bulb in the box. Thanks for your pretentious attitude, for it let me see instead of just look. I'll just take the back seat. Afterall, how could I compete with perfection? Need to suss out my track of mind asap

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Studied through the night, probably from all the coffee I drank, I still couldnt get to sleep until 6am. Then I woke up at 10am ._. And I still feel wide awake now. I'm probably caffeine intolerant due to the way my body reacts man.

On a happier note, there's tuition tonight, which will probably be a blast yay (:

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Tarot reading for today was exceptionally accurate

You are experiencing the despair felt after a defeat. See how your mind creates doubt and pessimism - look directly at your defeatist thinking. You defeat yourself with your own doubt and skepticism. It is time that you look at changing your own attitudes - let go of your pride and release this narrow view point - your own "ego" is inhibiting you. An old wound has been opened and you are experience fear associated with that memory - thoughts that history might repeat itself or that you could be hurt again. Your vision has been distorted by the past. Allow yourself to be sensitive to this deception in a personal situation - be receptive to the things that are causing you all these emotional problems. When you are involved in an unfair decision that is hard to correct - be patient with your emotions.

Too much or too little mental freedom - uncertainty. Too many or too few choices. Mind looks at itself ineffectively and will tend to be too passive and lax or will be over enthusiastic and cause havoc. Criticism of self and others can be harsh and inaccurate. A sharp tongue. A sense of mental loss rather than gain. Anger, confusion, argument, covering things up, impulsive, impatient, hasty, nervous, stubborn, complacent. Inappropriate worry, sadness, depression, disappointment, guilt or shame. The general is concentrating on his plan of retreat.